How my ex felt

Hmm, I think this song might sum up what my ex felt.

Matt Cerf ft. Jaren - Let Me Breathe (Noel Sanger & Shawn Mitiska Mix)

I woke up next to you today
Knowing you had to leave forever
We cannot continue this way
I see in your face the eyes of a stranger

Like a hidden power…dormant
My future is trapped inside of me
For all those years I have been patient
With you I cannot set it free

Let me breathe
I’m suffocating I can’t take it
Let me breathe
I’m afraid that I won’t make it

Let me…

Let me breathe
I’m suffocating I can’t take it
Let me breathe
I’m afraid that I won’t make it

One thing I'm not is controlling, which one might infer from the suffocating/with you I cannot set it free. But I think she felt that way more because of the commitment, and her unhappiness with it. Makes it a very sad song for me. To compound it, Jaren, the blonde woman in the stills, is the one who looks a lot like my ex.

Since I realized I really wasn't sufficiently over her, I've kind of been wallowing in it to try to get all the way over it. It's not helping. I think I'm underutilizing my valuable powers of denial and repression at this stage; they're there for a reason.